Change

I'm tired/
change makes me feel like it should have happened and that it can't ever happen/
but i think dark puts even the lightest light in perspective.


SL

Run

I guess its been long enough. I mean my head is tingling, or maybe its just my tea tree tingle shampoo. Anyway, something was pulling at me tonight and so, hence, my feeling compelled to write.

If you were on the fence, get off, and go see Up.

The throne of animated film has never, and in my mind, will never be usurped by anyone else thanks to the quality product Pixar Studios puts out time and time again. Just when you think the concept is weak, or the characters aren't relevant, the concept becomes larger than life and the characters become you and I.

This is not a movie review and according to my computer battery life, its gonna have to be a simple nugget of advice.

Do we let our adventures pass us by? And why? What seems better at the time? What is it that seems more rational? Does it make sense for me to be driven by ration instead of passion?

The film didn't tell me to always be driven by passion. I think the film tells the audience, its ok to be rational and choose what makes sense of your life. Contrary to that, the film never once tells you its too late to pursue whatever passion that is. Its about love, yes, but more about garnering that love into chasing what is in front of you.


I'm not sure if that all works. Comment please if you understand or fail to do so, which for the purposes of this one, we'll say its my fault. I love you for reading this, I hope you'll see the film and ask me about it. Run. Not from anything but for something, or maybe simply for the sake of running. One more week or so and I guess I'll head east on the I-10 and start the next chapter, maybe start putting some money in the adventure jar.

Run. Adventure is out there.


SL

It Might Take 18 to Realize the Dream

Small men have big dreams...

So over spring break, I had the privilege of spending my time on the island of Lanai in Hawaii with much thanks to the Hurst family for letting us run their place for the week. During one of the days we played golf at the most gorgeous course I have ever seen. I hadn't played golf since my sophomore year in high school so clearly, i'm a hack.

Throughout the round, I was constantly botching my tee shots. Just about every tee shot I hit went straight into the ravine in front of the tee box. I kept thinking to myself, can I get ONE shot. All I want is ONE shot.

((Lately the idea of getting ONE shot is resonating. Personally, I feel like I keep seeing people who "don't deserve" chances get theirs. While that happens, I find myself looking over my shoulder, wondering when I'll get mine, all the while forgetting about concentrating on my own game.))

The day was getting long and as we approached the 18th tee box, I had yet to have my one tee shot I could call mine. With the sun setting, and my frustrations aside, I forgot about failing. I forgot about what everyone else was doing. I forgot about what the 17 before it looked like and so I just hit the ball. .

Its golf, I know, its petty. It's a somewhat pretentious analogy but a strong one none the less. It tells you to keep pushing. It tells you to forget about the past. It tells you to forget about the first 17. So what if it takes you 18 chances. I'm convinced you'll get there.

Some may have it easier, but no one ever had it easy.

(In case your wondering, I'm frustrated, I'm still on my way to the 18th tee, and if thats what it takes, i'll get my chance)

SL

The Power of Waiting

So I had this personal revelation the other night while thinking about the power of waiting. I was thinking about how great the ends are when the means are actualized as opposed to the means being dwelled upon.

Consider this: No one really likes the first ten minutes of a movie, always setting the scene for something bigger and better. If you could map out "human excitement" on a 2-dimensional graph, you would find a movie generally heads upward only to climax and head down. (Think amusement park log flume rides)

Applying that to your everyday life, I feel like we (I) spend way too much time considering.entertaining.dwelling.focusing on "getting to the climax" (out of the gutter please). I get so thrown by the idea that I would love to be at THAT point in my life right now and without a doubt, I truly believe that will happen. I think when we keep our heads on straight, we'll all get there. The law of averages constantly acts and accordingly, I would concur, things do balance out. However, I don't think we can live as if that moment "should be" now. 

Who am I to say I deserve better now?

The ONLY thing you deserve, is to enjoy the "picture painting". Enjoy the flavors along the way. Stop and remember what that sunset looked like, because it will never happen again. Give that awkward kid your time, because in that moment, you can do something about something. Don't feel helpless...help. People need it. You need it.

Ya owe it to yourself,

SL

(Song of the Week - Radiohead: No Suprises)

Brilliant is the strange overcome

Saul was a murderer, but Paul was a lover.

Michael had the flu but he still scored 38.

Martin Luther King Jr. was imprisoned but freed the world from oppression.

Jesus the Christ was a radical who made the dark bright again.

Dick Hoyt swam, biked, and ran because Rick couldn't.

(I'll keep adding to this list. Help me out if you have any for me.)

The brilliant is the strange overcome. Overcome your strange.

SL

Live life abundantly.

Remember to stop and realize what your doing.

For months, I received a message from some guy (who i still don't know) who facebook messages me just about everyday asking to donate money to a cause I still don't know off the top of my head but I do remember one thing. I remember reading his cause and why he's fighting and all I can remember is feeling my heart beat a little faster because I believe in his call. I believe.

I'm not sure if thats clear but I think it all comes down to giving what you have, so you can have.

Live life abundantly.

SL

Radio got my heart...

So since I have listeners, I guess I should speak more often.

Some weird things go down in hotels.

Tonight, I'm stranded in a lil Hyatt Place in Atlanta, Georgia because, well fate knows me better. Fate knew I needed this and fate made me late to Atlanta so fate could show me what fate has in store for me. (btw: the word fate in the previous statement can easily be substituted with the word God)

So here I am, 3:56 in the am, deliriously, tirelessly, endlessly writing something that may not make any sense even after reading it back tomorrow morning but heres the tagline to remember:

WEIRD THINGS GO DOWN WHEN YOU FIND YOURSELF OUTSIDE YOUR ELEMENT

I've spent the last 3 years an counting in Malibu, California, and I feel no more creative power than I do, right now in this cozy hotel room, somewhere in Atlanta. This room is showing me what it feels like to be on my own and scared as hell. This room is showing me what to do when all I have is the clothes on my back, and a courtesy toothbrush in my pocket. This room is showing me what temptation looks like. This room is showing me what faith and perseverance can be. This room...

I just got done playing my guitar (thank God she was on my back for the whole adventure) for the last 3 hours and never before have I felt more comfortable on my own. Never before have I felt more loved then this moment right now. (thats a thank you to a one lindsay jernigan)

Alright, wow, i got carried away. I hope this is entertaining to read. But most of all, I hope you find the power in the room you are in right now.

thanks,

SL