Wednesday, November 11, 2009



I just finished writing something to someone that will have an impact. Thinking is one thing, writing is another, acting is supernatural. Really though, what is it that compels us to act on our thoughts. Things are planted in our minds as something worth championing, whether it be music, law, medicine, homelessness, education, whatever it may be, we are called into action.

Has inaction ever felt good? Honestly, I'd rather call it quits than be an inactive part of society because by being inactive, I am inherently removing myself from society anyway so save me the trouble and forget it.

In the spirit of action, I suggest we get heavily involved in championing the cause of welcoming our troops back as they serve abroad and here at home. Their gift is quite remarkable in that they continue giving. The sacrifice they make is continually in motion, making it more necessary for our nation to get behind this impending issue. I believe wholeheartedly that if any generation can handle such a daunting task, it should be ours.

www.ncire.org - www.va.gov - www.warriorcare.mil - www.welcomebackveterans

There are four great chances to get involved. Lets go.

SL

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Credit Give, Credit Live

Hear me out:


I don't think we (I) ever give Him enough credit for how He works and the magnitude of work He is able to accomplish. It's much like a pastry chef or maybe the equipment manager for a professional baseball team or maybe mom or dad, or the musician who spends one hour on stage but months and months and years and years of work to create a project he can call "his" and give to you, wholeheartedly as something you can call "yours".


Always give credit where credit is due but guess what, you'll NEVER correctly allocate credit, even if He is the one whom all credit is due.


Happy Sunday ya'll. Find me a church, or help me find one, or if anyone knows a group of people who meet in Philadelphia, let me know. May God bless you all more than you'll ever know.



Love, the Hendrix brand, as always,

SL

Monday, October 5, 2009

New Format



So the other night I was reading through some Henry David Thoreau (Walden) namely "Baker Farm" and "Economy" and I remembered fondly, of being forced to read the very passage I chose to free-read on a Sunday night for the pure joy of those beautiful words. As I'm reading, I am constantly racking and re-racking my brain so I may better understand what he's getting at. He chronicles his life at Walden Pond while he questioning western progress of the mid 19th century. He amazingly weaves the struggles of fishing on a sometimes barren pond seamlessly into a discussion of the American "way" we still struggle with to this day. Thoreau asks how one can understand the Mexican American War and how funding such a war, based on mandatory taxation, should be considered unjust, especially when the fight is founded on questionable motivations (sound familiar?).

All this for what? I realized that in the spirit of modern press and media and bloggernation, that Thoreau was merely one of the worlds first "bloggers", just a bit delayed. I have similar power in that right. You have similar agency simply by reading these words. So with that, and during a year already filled with struggles and tough decisions, I figured I should take a different approach and truly try and capture my year on this here blog. Not once a day, not once an hour, not once a Tweet. Maybe once a week. It might be deep, it might be shallow, it will be funny (to me at least) and it will more than likely address something bigger than myself. Anything short of this, and I will fail in my attempt to talk life. In my attempt to connect with you. In my attempt to write my hand off to clear my stupid head, or to let someone else speak through my head.

Thanks for reading. Sorry for slacking. I'm back in tow, lets roll.

SL

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

It Might Get Loud



As an introduction, i'm not used to writing in crowded coffee shops with the prospect of people seeing over my shoulder, so it might not be completely transparent. Ah screw it, i'll let it fly.

The night is spiritual, as is the morning, as is the overcast day. Granted, I can see the prototypical Southern California day in my mind and without any reservation, God is there, I know he is, its quite obvious when you see Lisa Frank dolphins jumping from the depths of the water into the overbearing sunlight through the sparkling, effervescent water. But to see Him reveled in the drab, misunderstood faculties of life is vital to understanding oneself.

I don't think you have to expect the best all the time. Even when you feel like a funky cloud is surrounding you, (Think Eeyore, storm cloud following him everywhere he goes) just keep swimming. I will contest to being in a funk myself. It sucks not having a job. It sucks being in a new city and having long days filled with endless job searches and guitar licks (the later has been kinda nice). But ya know what?

Its awesome having a mom who supports me.
Its awesome having the freedom to run at 5 in the morning because I can't sleep.
Its awesome trying to write the song no one has written.
Its awesome amping up my body and writing my hand off. (And I don't do it enough so if you read this, text me right NOW and force me to write)
Its awesome being creative.


Had to write, it hurt to hold this in. Find your rainy day. Time to leave this over caffeinated room and head back to those six strings.

My Sweet Lord- George Harrison

Thanks ya'll, turn it up.

SL

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Trane




Someone told me I needed this so here I am. That someone was me.

It might be time for me to air out some dirty laundry, to take out the trash, to dispose of the garbage, to free up some of the free radicals, to clear out my synapses and create new connections, to clear out my hard drive . (andddd enough)

"I don't want to be scared anymore, but I know I will be anyway. I think fear is the monster inside that somehow, one day, makes itself fully actualized as an angel and is clandestinely walking you to the place where you should be. Turmoil is merely the angel taking you by the hand, the rough, flaky, dangerously sharp edge-laden appendage that appears to belong to a subhuman, subterranean beast, but its actually just the angels hand all along, you were just too scared to realize who it was."

I'm coping with pain here. That last whole paragraph is the only way I can understand what pain is, because I feel it. I feel it when I handle my future without forgetting the let downs of my past. I feel it when some things seem impossible and the pain makes that impossibility seem real. I feel it when I forget my place. I feel it when I give and don't feel others doing the same. I feel it when I look in the mirror and realize I don't need to feel it anymore.

Give freely and don't look back.

Play your instrument to the effect John Coltrane on "Every time We Say Goodbye", frantic yet controlled, yet tactful, yet lovingly.

Even if people forget you, I know some won't.

Heres to hoping half of my heart is as heavy as the other half.


SL

Friday, July 17, 2009

Free

And i want to be free
Wind in my hair
Salt on my skin
Sun in the air
I have to feel love
Holding on me
I'll give you everything that you would ever need

SL

Its a day away from a day.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Movement

Yea, why not.

3,200 miles later, I figured things would be different, and they are. But I was surprised to find something that held constant the whole way through. Throughout the trip, I thought "it be" cool to take short snippet videos of my trip as opposed to the standard still shot photograph because for whatever reason, we remember movement so much better than still action.

I remember how I felt when you (insert some significant action here). Movement helps us remember how we feel or felt for that matter, whether it be dance, athletics, music, art, etc. These are all movements that we remember not because they are merely movements in themselves but because these movements extract emotion.

Thats all it is. Thats all movement is, an extraction of emotion.

So it would make sense that moving 3,200 miles across this beautiful country would elicit an emotional response

The most important of these emotional responses was somewhat unexpected. I pulled into my drive at midnight or so last Saturday night, turned off the car, opened the car door, stretched a bit, looked up, and what did I see but the most beautiful sky I had ever seen in my life. It was unexpected because for the last four years, I've lived in arguably the most beautiful place in the world. For some reason, it took me 3,200 miles to remember how big things really are and how beautiful the big things really are.

Hence my frustration when people fail to recognize the beauty in where they are NOW. Be moved by now and you will continue to do so. I think. ? .

SL

(Btw: The content of "Man in the Mirror" is unbelievably more moving than it was a week ago. Now thats art.)

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Change

I'm tired/
change makes me feel like it should have happened and that it can't ever happen/
but i think dark puts even the lightest light in perspective.


SL

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Run




I guess its been long enough. I mean my head is tingling, or maybe its just my tea tree tingle shampoo. Anyway, something was pulling at me tonight and so, hence, my feeling compelled to write.

If you were on the fence, get off, and go see Up.

The throne of animated film has never, and in my mind, will never be usurped by anyone else thanks to the quality product Pixar Studios puts out time and time again. Just when you think the concept is weak, or the characters aren't relevant, the concept becomes larger than life and the characters become you and I.

This is not a movie review and according to my computer battery life, its gonna have to be a simple nugget of advice.

Do we let our adventures pass us by? And why? What seems better at the time? What is it that seems more rational? Does it make sense for me to be driven by ration instead of passion?

The film didn't tell me to always be driven by passion. I think the film tells the audience, its ok to be rational and choose what makes sense of your life. Contrary to that, the film never once tells you its too late to pursue whatever passion that is. Its about love, yes, but more about garnering that love into chasing what is in front of you.


I'm not sure if that all works. Comment please if you understand or fail to do so, which for the purposes of this one, we'll say its my fault. I love you for reading this, I hope you'll see the film and ask me about it. Run. Not from anything but for something, or maybe simply for the sake of running. One more week or so and I guess I'll head east on the I-10 and start the next chapter, maybe start putting some money in the adventure jar.

Run. Adventure is out there.


SL

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

It Might Take 18 to Realize the Dream


Small men have big dreams...

So over spring break, I had the privilege of spending my time on the island of Lanai in Hawaii with much thanks to the Hurst family for letting us run their place for the week. During one of the days we played golf at the most gorgeous course I have ever seen. I hadn't played golf since my sophomore year in high school so clearly, i'm a hack.

Throughout the round, I was constantly botching my tee shots. Just about every tee shot I hit went straight into the ravine in front of the tee box. I kept thinking to myself, can I get ONE shot. All I want is ONE shot.

((Lately the idea of getting ONE shot is resonating. Personally, I feel like I keep seeing people who "don't deserve" chances get theirs. While that happens, I find myself looking over my shoulder, wondering when I'll get mine, all the while forgetting about concentrating on my own game.))

The day was getting long and as we approached the 18th tee box, I had yet to have my one tee shot I could call mine. With the sun setting, and my frustrations aside, I forgot about failing. I forgot about what everyone else was doing. I forgot about what the 17 before it looked like and so I just hit the ball. .


Its golf, I know, its petty. It's a somewhat pretentious analogy but a strong one none the less. It tells you to keep pushing. It tells you to forget about the past. It tells you to forget about the first 17. So what if it takes you 18 chances. I'm convinced you'll get there.

Some may have it easier, but no one ever had it easy.

(In case your wondering, I'm frustrated, I'm still on my way to the 18th tee, and if thats what it takes, i'll get my chance)

SL


Thursday, February 19, 2009

The Power of Waiting


So I had this personal revelation the other night while thinking about the power of waiting. I was thinking about how great the ends are when the means are actualized as opposed to the means being dwelled upon.

Consider this: No one really likes the first ten minutes of a movie, always setting the scene for something bigger and better. If you could map out "human excitement" on a 2-dimensional graph, you would find a movie generally heads upward only to climax and head down. (Think amusement park log flume rides)

Applying that to your everyday life, I feel like we (I) spend way too much time considering.entertaining.dwelling.focusing on "getting to the climax" (out of the gutter please). I get so thrown by the idea that I would love to be at THAT point in my life right now and without a doubt, I truly believe that will happen. I think when we keep our heads on straight, we'll all get there. The law of averages constantly acts and accordingly, I would concur, things do balance out. However, I don't think we can live as if that moment "should be" now. 

Who am I to say I deserve better now?

The ONLY thing you deserve, is to enjoy the "picture painting". Enjoy the flavors along the way. Stop and remember what that sunset looked like, because it will never happen again. Give that awkward kid your time, because in that moment, you can do something about something. Don't feel helpless...help. People need it. You need it.

Ya owe it to yourself,

SL

(Song of the Week - Radiohead: No Suprises)

Monday, January 26, 2009

Brilliant is the strange overcome

Saul was a murderer, but Paul was a lover.
Michael had the flu but he still scored 38.
Martin Luther King Jr. was imprisoned but freed the world from oppression.
Jesus the Christ was a radical who made the dark bright again.
Dick Hoyt swam, biked, and ran because Rick couldn't.


(I'll keep adding to this list. Help me out if you have any for me.)


The brilliant is the strange overcome. Overcome your strange.


SL

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Live life abundantly.

Remember to stop and realize what your doing.


For months, I received a message from some guy (who i still don't know) who facebook messages me just about everyday asking to donate money to a cause I still don't know off the top of my head but I do remember one thing. I remember reading his cause and why he's fighting and all I can remember is feeling my heart beat a little faster because I believe in his call. I believe.


I'm not sure if thats clear but I think it all comes down to giving what you have, so you can have.


Live life abundantly.


SL

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Radio got my heart...

So since I have listeners, I guess I should speak more often.

Some weird things go down in hotels.

Tonight, I'm stranded in a lil Hyatt Place in Atlanta, Georgia because, well fate knows me better. Fate knew I needed this and fate made me late to Atlanta so fate could show me what fate has in store for me. (btw: the word fate in the previous statement can easily be substituted with the word God)

So here I am, 3:56 in the am, deliriously, tirelessly, endlessly writing something that may not make any sense even after reading it back tomorrow morning but heres the tagline to remember:

WEIRD THINGS GO DOWN WHEN YOU FIND YOURSELF OUTSIDE YOUR ELEMENT

I've spent the last 3 years an counting in Malibu, California, and I feel no more creative power than I do, right now in this cozy hotel room, somewhere in Atlanta. This room is showing me what it feels like to be on my own and scared as hell. This room is showing me what to do when all I have is the clothes on my back, and a courtesy toothbrush in my pocket. This room is showing me what temptation looks like. This room is showing me what faith and perseverance can be. This room...

I just got done playing my guitar (thank God she was on my back for the whole adventure) for the last 3 hours and never before have I felt more comfortable on my own. Never before have I felt more loved then this moment right now. (thats a thank you to a one lindsay jernigan)


Alright, wow, i got carried away. I hope this is entertaining to read. But most of all, I hope you find the power in the room you are in right now.


thanks,

SL

Sunday, December 7, 2008

On My Own


I don't mind the idea. I think someone has my back, I know someone has my back.

I'll write more about my night tonight on the later. Maybe post finals when i can breathe but for now, enjoy.

I believe, my life is gonna see, the love I give, return to me.



SL 

(notice what that picture says just a smidgen to the right of his head.)

Thursday, December 4, 2008

The Heart of Life

So this was for my Social Theory class. Consider the stuff that works for you, forget the "academic" jargon, but remember my message. Change is not mystical, change has never been about the economy or about the climate. Its about YOU.


You are our celebrity.

What exactly does it mean to be a “celebrity”?

            Much in part to the post-global media age in which we live, we are a generation that is fully and completely dedicated to the idea of “celebrity”. The term celebrity derives from the Latin verb celebrere, meaning to celebrate or to look at observationally. Seeing that mankind has always been a social being, we have consistently devised specific criteria from which to celebrate specific individuals in society. The reason we have celebrities is not the question to be answered but more so what is it that determines whom we consider “celebrateable”. The criteria for granting someone “celebrity status” has never been the same and is consistently evolving around the social conditions of the world around us. When we think of celebrities today, we instinctively conjure up images of the irresponsibility of Britney Spears or the endless partying of Tara Reid or possibly the mindless acts of heiress Paris Hilton. However, celebrity has not always been about the meaningless exploits of these forgettable figures. In ancient human societies (until Guttenberg), celebrity was more about personal bravery and occupational prestige than about the economic advantage of a westernized world. Subsequent to that, pre-mass media societies (Gutenberg-television) held political and social figures in the highest because they possessed much of the influential and economic clout to manipulate the world around them. Finally, in the post-mass media age in which we now live, (television-present) the celebrity is essentially a public figure who is deviant from what is considered normal. One is considered a celebrity simply because they have a deviating trait that differentiates them from other individuals in their field. Additionally, I hypothesize that the modern day celebrity falls somewhere on my “continuum of responsibility”. It is my hypothesis that each and every so-called celebrity in the post-mass media age can be systematically placed somewhere between responsibility and irresponsibility (fig.1). Unlike pre-mass media driven societies where celebrity status was more or less politically and economically determined, modern societies define celebrity quite broadly. Celebrity can be defined as an attractive myspace seductress (Tila Tequila) or as a religiously driven motivational speaker (Joel Osteen) or even as a musician with a conscience (John Mayer). All alternative definitions aside, a celebrity is essentially a figure who is able to develop their capacity for fame not necessarily by doing amazing things but more so by differentiating themselves from other people who are in their same field of study. I posit that you too can create your own “celebrity” however you choose.

Understanding Dramaturgical and Pragmatic Theory

            After understanding my definition for what defines a modern day celebrity, I would first like to consider what other scholars have suggested about the celebrity in each and every one of us. Erving Goffman suggested that life is a stage and on that stage, we are all actors who accordingly manage our external impressions by assuming roles we deem favorable while withholding undesirable information (Goffman). Goffman also recognized that people systematically have a mode of action they perform on the front stage as well as a mode of action they withhold back stage. Goffman asserts that the individual is self-consciously conflicted between the “I” and “Me” personality. The “I” personality, also known as the backstage, is the impulsive uncontrolled self that faces no clear self-regulation. Conversely, the “Me” personality, also known as the front stage, is the social self that experiences a complex set of personal regulations (Goffman). In addition to Goffman’s theory, George Herbert Mead sheds light on pragmatic theory in stating that the individual experiences three distinct stages of the self through the social experience. The three main stages of the self are as follows; play- the individual role someone takes on, game- the idea that someone takes on various roles for various social situations, and generalized other- we take on the role of the other.

Be Your Own Celebrity: We Need You

            So what do Goffman and Mead’s theories on human action contribute to a better understanding of my theory of the creation your own inner celebrity? What does it truly mean to create your own inner celebrity? I would first like you to fully understand that I feel as if the American concept of celebrity is twisted. We have slowly begun to reward the detrimental in a nation where so many great things happen everyday. That’s where you come in.

            To think that people create their own creative “fingerprint-like” personalities is only a partial truth. Personality is essentially a sum of the people we surround ourselves with where we cognitively choose to subtract what we dislike about other people around us. Conversely, we are able to establish who we are based on what we like in other people. My theory suggests that we are able to create two different forms of self-identification called purposeful identification and inadvertent identification. Purposeful identification is the degree of power we possess in creating what we want to see in ourselves as a social instrument. The inadvertent identification we create is that which is out of our direct control, essentially it is what the social world determines about our self-created personality. For example, I like wearing unique Nike high top shoes because of what it says about my sense of fashion while hoping to dodge the ghetto stereotypes that come along with people who wear such a cultural piece of information. I try to create my own fashionable identity while hoping to avoid what the social world says about that identity. Some create this purposeful identity more boldly than others but all in all, we truly have the power to create whatever it is we want to create in ourselves. So in creating “your inner celebrity”, be original but much more importantly, be you. The world has seen enough cookie cutter personalities that have filled the world with enough insignificance. Be significant and feel empowered to create your own significance.

            In relating the creation of a purposeful identity to another side of my social theory, I also assert that much like so-called celebrities, we too have the power to advertise a product for all to purchase. Celebrity product endorsement has gone global and because of such a grand scale social development, you too can represent yourself as a product for the entire world to see. Our ability to “sell” ourselves starts with how we decide to differentiate ourselves from others by making our own unique, and sellable product. I assert that “selling ourselves” as a unique product is dependent on three social factors that essentially build on one another to create our overall capital that creates us as a social “celebrity”. First, we must have some sort of influence over mass media productions to advertise who we are and what we stand for (facebook, the Graphic, LA Times, etc.). I call this social factor “press influence”. Secondly, we must successfully navigate the creation of our “purposeful identification” by monitoring who we are in terms of the social world around us. A prerequisite for becoming a celebrated individual is being insatiably curious with the social world, all the while altering what we are in the context of the surrounding world. Finally, we can only be celebrated as far deep and wide as our social networks reach. Our press influence and our manipulating power of the self are only as powerful as the extensiveness of our social networks reach. For example, I could potentially possess the “key to success in life” while also being able to successfully regulate my purposeful identification, but I can only do these two things effectively if I have extensive social networks from which to spread my product.

One

            Whether we acknowledge it or not, the world is perpetually globalizing faster and faster. As a global community, we are eminently closer today than we were yesterday. We are now able to see poverty in third world countries, to understand what global warming looks like, and to fully understand the impact that one individual can have either negatively or positively for either the detriment or betterment of our global society. With that understanding, we can comprehend the great power invested in being a figure that is publically celebrated.

            With that said, I am earnestly discontent with the people we decide to celebrate in modern America. Putting that aside, I think we’re getting to a place where we are beginning to honor people who truly make a difference. We are beginning to remember what it means to “insure domestic tranquility and to promote the general welfare”. We are beginning to remember what it feels like to give our love in place of all the materialistic static we sometimes overemphasize. In light of that, I encourage you to create your own powerful celebrated individuality. I encourage you to see the good in your life, and differentiate yourself from the middle of the road people who consider themselves celebrities. I don’t ask that you be the next Gandhi or MLK Jr., but I do ask that when you look in the mirror every morning, just remember how great it will feel to look into that same mirror later that night, and understand the change you have made.

 

“I know the heart of life is good”




Signing out blogosphere


SL

Sunday, November 23, 2008

I got your back...



So I have a lot to say but I wanted to condense everything into something small for now. Maybe i'll follow through with some more later.


Check it.


A friend will always be in the front row at your "show", (even if you've never been more nervous for what's to come, he's still got your back).



SL

Monday, November 17, 2008

Open letter to "Mom"



Dear Mom,
Thank you for patience. Thank you for giving me thankfulness. Thank you for making me industrious. Thank you for showing me God instead of giving me a god. Thank you for not worrying about me. Thank you for worrying too much. Thank you for accepting Taylor Swift into our family one day. Thank you for making me a dreamer (see the previous statement). Thank you for making me eat Irish Potatoes. Thank you for taking money off my allowance when I was sassy-frassy. Thank you for leaving me always wanting more.

Patience is kind, patience is cruel, but patience wins (25 years later).

Thank you for patience. Be patient with me.


Dream on blogosphere.

SL

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Ya owe it to yourself!


I love when people keep people in check. I had a good friend of mine today tell me in so many words to, enjoy myself, enjoy life, because well, "i owe it to myself". 

I love it! Straight up reminded me of home. For some reason, Philadelphians love to tell one another "ahh comon' ya owe it to yourself!"

So blogosphere, "YA OWE IT TO YOURSELF!"

Think about that idea, but not selfishly. Not you owe yourself a trip to Nordstrom Rack or you owe yourself a peppermint latte before each and every class. These motives completely sideswipe the idea at the heart of owing it to yourself. Its about two very important things.

1. Take care of yourself 
2. Take care of others (i still think you deal with number 2 before 1 even comes into the question)

Lemme try and reframe this idea in a different way. So try and add these 5 ideas to your lexicon of "owing it to yourself".

1. Ya owe it to yourself to love when hurt is all you see
2. Ya owe it to yourself to be goodness, when hate is all you feel
3. Ya owe it to yourself to make loneliness obsolete
4. Ya owe it to yourself to give the hungry some food and good conversation
and finally 5. Ya owe it to yourself to give what has already been given to you

Thats all. Keep writing, i will. Keep laughing, i will. Keep loving, i will, Keep praying, i will. Keep dreaming, i do.

SL

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Inconvenience: making things convenient

(so this is my bust, at 22, and i'm thinking, as usual) 


So I feel as if being a member of the greater society for 22 years strong leaves me entitled to a number of things. One full year into being a legal drinker, i feel as if i can pride myself on the simple fact that...well... I am not an alcoholic. Thanks.


I was just thinking, or more like my heart was just thinking, about how odd proximity becomes. I'm talking about people, i'm talking about relationships. The right place the right time. We are so enamored with space. Somehow we need SO MUCH space for ourselves, but the only time we actually go out of our way for other people is if they happen to be within our social space. Does that make sense?

I mean i guess it does but does that not sound sloth-ish.

I mean think about the last time you took time out to be a friend knowing that the means to get to that person would most likely be inconvenient. Ask yourself that right now.

I write most of this out of frustration. The last year of my life i've dealt with this very concept. I have had people who were supposedly the ones who were going to "have my back", make it easy to have my back, when its easy. 

Its a surreal experience to find yourself in a rut, on your way down, falling, so much so that your so called "friends" are inconveniently prefixed on something else, making your fall convenient. Just think about your so called "social circles". Think about who you hurt by alienating (even if it is unintentional). This is not to say "create a circle, and be strong only in that circle". It is however to say that you can't actually have a circle when you somehow disconnect one of your most important links.


Thats all, i'm done. I hope this message gets to the people it needs to get to, I think you know who you are, if you don't, ask.

SL