Where the light is...

So i've been meaning to write this for quite some time now and it's finally ready, maybe, maybe not. But now seems like a good time to "launch".

This isn't about the hook of a song or a sweet music DVD that somehow found a way to combine phenomenal musical prowess with attractive and dramatic cinematography. This is about a fundamental concept of "the light", and all that is "good".

In saying "keep me where the light is" we somehow infer that because of the hopeful light, we are somehow running from something that is hopeless. It's the Yin to the Yang. For every failure there is a success. For every step backward, there is a step forward. But, however, challenge yourself to pray, beg, plead, hope that somehow, you can stay where that light is.

We all make mistakes. We always will. I always will. This is not to say "oh well, it's natural for me to trip up and fall short of my expectations, so i guess i won't expect better of myself" (for the Paul people in the crowd, you know what i'm talking about.) EXPECT BETTER, YOU CAN DO BETTER.

This is not your reaffirmation, this is you call. Better is your future.

So think about your light. Think about THE light. Think about what it is that makes your goals, "your goals". What are your true motivations? I know I don't ask myself what my motivations are near enough but it brings me back to the importance of the light.

My prayer is stay where that light is. This isn't hopeless or helpless. It is however hopeful and humble.

Keep me, come on, please, please, keep me where the light is.

SL

Anymore it just feels right to make anything you feel,...feel right. Thats redundant, I know. But think about what you feel and keep thinking about how what you feel is really reflected in other people's perception of you. It's possible that my world is coming down and no one knows it unless things associated with such are expressed in that manner. Ex: The only way a coal miner can tell if the air is thin is by looking at the canary. 

The struggle comes in opening that feeling up before the canary dies.

This "feeling" doesn't have to be good or bad, exuberant or gloomy, compressed or depressed, whatever that feeling it is, that feeling cannot be understood by itself and in itself. That is unless pressure builds to such a point where the floodgates open and "the bird dies". I think the goal has to be to prevent such an occurrence.

I think recently and within the last year, i've seen things build up in a number a ways and in a number of places and in response to that, very rarely do people choose to alleviate that pent up (pressure, stress, etc) because to go out of your way to make that happen is uncomfortable and inconvenient.

But should we expect the people we surround ourselves with to take care of those things? Is it our job to attend to others? I think so. Whatever happened to the Golden.

I could go on but it starts and ends with taking care of each other. Look out for 1 after 2 is taken care of. Forget throwing all your chips in on someone who "might" let you down. Pile sky high the hopes in someone, something, you KNOW won't EVER throw you to the side for someone/something else.

I ramble, i know, but i guess thats just what happens when my mind gets clogged. 

SL

Heres the thing. With modern technological advances, sprawling media coverage of everything and anything whether meaningless of meaningful, and a culture of significance assigned to insignificant things, it's pretty easy to call a spade a spade. It becomes pretty easy to root for number 1. It becomes pretty easy to forget about what burns in your heart at the expense of what makes sense in your mind. It becomes easy to accept appearance that is superficially superimposed upon reality.

These unreal things become real easy.

Check it: So I was watching the olympics tonight, as a good American should, and I came across a strange concept. What if for some reason, 8 meant 1. What if for some reason, Michael Phelps felt that whoever finished last in the 200m butterfly can take his 7th metal, he doesn't need it. What does it really mean anyway? He still won the race, and he knows it. I don't want to get reward confused with some kind of communist plot to make things equal but hear me out and try this simple act.

Listen to 8 just as hard as you would listen to 1.

Root for the other guy, and the underdog. They might just surprise you.

Good to be back

SL

 

Try

It's going to happen and I no longer care. I've spent too much time caring...

we spend to much time caring

(self-conscious, nervous, alone, jealous, intimidated, dirty, used)

Your goal is to try and find a way to turn all of these things around.

(bold, confident, together, content, at home, clean, new)

Stick with it. I know it's hard, I feel it now. All I know is i'll just have to try. TRY.

SL